Typings of a wayward hand

ok, so i’ve been doing some bloody catering to earn money since i’m not getting any allowance. anyways, the admissions dude from segi called and said that i was accepted and that the semester commences on april. i was like "wtbloodyfuck? " at the open day they said that it started in february. and now he says its starting on april. so i have to get a job, something more routine that catering which is based on orders. anyways, this week has been pretty productive, did catering 3 days, solo work. 3 meals, breakfast lunch afternoon tea at wisma allianz insurance near st. john’s church. 23 pax, so i could handle it alone. but the bloody driving sucked. anyways, there was a new security guard at that building (nepalese) which barely understood english or malay. and he thought i was a fellow nepalese. must be the nose. lol.

anyways, i’m reconsidering my options. still wanna go to the uk. maybe 2nd choice would be swinburne or curtin. both in sarawak. foreign universities branch campus. in malaysia there are only 4. monash, nottingham, curtin and swinburne. monash and nottingham is bloody expensive although they are highly ranked in the world ratings. curtin and swinburne aint bad, as recognized as the aussie campus, can transfer to the aussie campus oso. cos the course that i applied for at segi is a uk degree. a franchise degree. which might not hold as much weight compared to the other options. and the university of sunderland isnt really highly rated. anyways, in mechanical engineering what potential employers look for are the mechanical engineering departments of the respective tertiary institutions. and being a franchise college, it wont be as complete as one from a full fledged uni. my plan is to apply to go to the uk, if i get accepted go apply for a loan from mara, if i dont get the loan i’ll go to swinburne/curtin. segi is the last choice. i think. the problem is, swinburne starts in february. curtin not sure when. so maybe enroll in swinburne september semester if i havent gone anywhere else. the most stable choice is segi. its near the house in kota damansara, i wont have to get used to the environment, and i can establish more of a base. and i get to use a car. for the uk, its a stab in the dark, but the exposure and change of environment would hopefully fulfill my potential. curtin and sarawak would cost more since its a year longer than segi and i have to pay for accomodations and other stuff. the cost/year is marginally more expensive compared to segi. no transportation either. hurm.

i dont want to make a choice that i’m gonna regret. which is main problem. i’m tired of ‘going with the flow’

any okay, so this month i’m not getting any funding from my parents. so i have to find a job (or find a way of sustaining my existance without the usage of money, lol). currently i havent even started looking. cos i’m not sure what employers would want to hire some1 for just a month (since i should be starting classes in feb). and i’m pretty choosy. i wouldnt want to do something that isnt worth my bloody time. pretty high on my list is data entry (home based preferred), waiter at the curve (good restaurants, decent pay, cheap parking and not far from home<<very important!), shop promoter/sales at the curve (should have less pay if not include commissions, but not too hard work). but i havent been sitting idle and comtemplating my next move. no no no. that is what unproductive people to do. i also (yes, i had been sitting idle abit. lol) did some catering. weekend, 2 days. weddings. the best pay. rm120 for 2 days work aint bad. almost the same as a whole week’s pay at 7-11. so thats y i’m choosy. as i said, i wanna do something that is worth my time. on the other hand, during those 2 weddings, i was exposed to the bloody rain and now i have the flu. already past the peak, subsiding. currently clearing the phlegm with mah super powderful lung capacity and diaphram muscle power. and boy there are loads of phlegm coming out from the depths of my throat and even from the chest (not sure if from the lungs or not). anyways, i’m optimistic that i can sustain myself without getting a ‘real’ job. the catering should sustain me if there are enough (hopefully). and i’m too lazy to get a job since i hate rejection. yes, i’m a leo. tomorrow got another catering, 500 ppl. should be payed less compared to weddings, but i’m also doing the cooking so maybe i get more (too lazy to cook for weddings. sitting on ass for hours doesnt appeal to me). but i do want to get a more routine job. procrastination and the fear of rejection just gets the better of me. and i’m a pretty frank person, so i would tell the interviewer than i’m only going to work for a month. i dont believe in lying/deceiving (although sometimes i conceal the truth. but i dont endorse it.lol) and then suddenly going MIA after a month. i like to have cordial relationships with everyone and dont want to sour relationships even with people i might not ever meet again. cos nobody can predict the future. at least nobody i know personally. hurm. anyways happy new year (again). hoping that this year is one that is more productive for me. horoscopes say this year is something that i should be succeeding in things. so yeah. need to explore opportunities. already got a few in mind. hurm.