going to start work this week. going off in 1-2 days. bandar tenggara in johor (near kluang). going to be alone there. which sucks. so hopefully i find a good cc nearby. at least i got a rig to accompany me. hurm.
my horoscope today. lol
You and a new person on the scene make a good combination — you balance each other.
hopefully female. but very highly unlikely. lol.
disclaimer:
ok. this is one of those posts that nobody wants to read.
after some self reflection over my past actions over the past year or so, i have come to a conclusion. i have become a grumpy young man. lol.
for one, i have become irritated much more easily by words. my ultra high tolerance levels have dropped a bit. and no, i dont get mad at people(not on a regular basis, about once a year). getting mad is for people who arent in control of their emotions. i just get irritated and fire off some heated words. if i were to get mad i would be spitting fire and plasma. usually. but i rarely get mad. really. cos if i get mad i tend to snap. which is normal right? it isnt? oh wait. so throwing objects and doing flying kicks isnt normal? anger management? me? …….. whatever.
ok, now that i’ve finished my bloody diploma, my priorities have gone abit whack. my excuse is that this is caused by my parents’ sudden pullout from the agriculture plan which somewhat left me in a lurch. leaving me to find out what i want to do with my life(for the 3rd or so time). and i havent gotten a job yet. temporary job til i continue with my degree in january (hopefully).
another thing that i am very much guilty of is not controlling my finances. it is at a critical level when you spend so much that you dont realise how much you actually spent in the past month. and both parents almost getting heart attacks when they found out that i ran out of money. and i dont wanna say how much i spent. helluvalot more than i should is the final word.
i’ve been a pretty bad son. even though i only meet my parents 2 times a year and mostly contact them through sms or phone calls, i have been more of a liability to them rather than an asset. i blame it on their pullout of the plan. of course, i havent been the most hardworking person either. and sorry for the hurtful words mom. but what you lied about was even more hurtful. i only said that in retaliation. and parents arent without faults. its just that i’m better at finding my parents’ faults. and it is very hard for me to say sorry. and actually mean it. blame my leo pride. and also blame my excellent memory. i might forgive but i dont forget. remember that if any1 reading this is actually planning on doing something not nice towards me. 
it seems as though i’ve been a better friend. been more willing to help others out, been (somewhat) nicer to people (even the ones i cant stand) and as a result i have been somewhat used. not to mention becoming more broke as a result. another reason for the uncontrolled finances.
i think (not quite sure) that i might have become more annoying. i think that i’ve been talking about myself much more often nowadays and been revealing more (previously secrets) about myself. to the point of being somewhat narcissistic. this isnt based on what others say, but i’m just guessing. sorry for having to put up with me guys. my annoying levels levels have increased. and i seem to be more expressive of my feelings. which isnt like me.
i’ll try to be less narcissistic. i promise. talking too much about myself isnt really what i’m comfortable with. i used to keep every1’s secrets while revealing none of mine. and now i’m becoming the type of person i hated. damn.
